Tuesday, January 15, 2013

Doomed

Life throws a lot of unexpected curve balls at us that we have to deal with, sometimes we hit it out of the ball park, sometimes we miss and sometimes we get fouled out. Through it all I wish that I did not know better.
I wish that I was a religious person and believed in god and heaven.  I wish that when things became difficult, I would go to a religious center or to the foot of my bed and prayed for a solution or a helping hand and hope and wait for a change.  I wish that when I lost loved ones I could have believed that they were going to a better place and that I would one day be reunited with them.  I wish that I believed that there is a higher and stronger power looking over me and protecting me and thinking of me and loving me.  I wish I was part of a community that all believed in something, had a strong bond and put our faith into it together. I wish I had faith!
Life would be peaceful and hopeful and easy if I believed.  If I could put my fate in god's hands and think that whatever happened was because it was god's plan and that there was a good reason for it.  To think that no matter what happens, I am being looked after and I can sit back and let him take care of things.  To think that all I need to do was to pray and pray and things will change or improve.  Life would not be lonely if I talked to god daily and believed that he was listening and understanding and not judging.  To believe that no matter what happens in this life, there will be another life waiting for me after I leave here.
Because life is scary and lonely without all of that.  To know that there is no god and no heaven and that we are in this universe alone and on our own is terrifying.  To know that we have to deal with the tragedies of life without a higher power looking over us and to know that accidents are truly accidents and not an omen is horrible.  To not be able to put your hope and dreams and desires into the hands of something more powerful is immortalizing.  To lose a loved one and know that their spirit will not stay close to you and be with you or that you will not see them in another life is depressing.
That is why religion is a necessity for human beings to have in their life, in order to be able to survive and stay calm and be happy.  Unfortunately some of us are deprived of that "blessing".

2 comments:

Unknown said...

I have mixed feelings about this one. I agree that notion of death and no afterlife is depressing, at least for me. But I also know several people of faith who lost their spouse/child and I’d say there were pretty darn depressed too. I also know couple of atheist friends who dealt with the loss of a loved one in ways that I wish I could do. I know the general verdict is religion comes to one’s rescue in difficult times; however I’m not sure if this is scientifically proven. Has any unbiased research/survey done in this area? Frankly I think it’s more like a selling point for preachers than a scientific fact. I believe there are a lot of factors that will affect our strength in dealing with life and its dilemmas , and they can be equally effective as believing in superpower. In my case, caring friends have turned around a lot of depressing moments in my life 

Unknown said...

I have mixed feelings about this one. I agree that notion of death and no afterlife is depressing, at least for me. But I also know several people of faith who lost their spouse/child and I’d say there were pretty darn depressed too. I also know couple of atheist friends who dealt with the loss of a loved one in ways that I wish I could do. I know the general verdict is religion comes to one’s rescue in difficult times; however I’m not sure if this is scientifically proven. Has any unbiased research/survey done in this area? Frankly I think it’s more like a selling point for preachers than a scientific fact. I believe there are a lot of factors that will affect our strength in dealing with life and its dilemmas , and they can be equally effective as believing in superpower. In my case, caring friends have turned around a lot of depressing moments in my life 